"I didn't think you'd notice me."

I've been waiting for your call since the last time I actually talked to you or the last time I left you that voicemail. Finally, you called a few minutes ago. I'm honestly still in shocked right at this moment. There are so many things going through my head right now. Mixed feelings... I'm really happy to hear from you, surprised about the things you just told me a few minutes ago, bummed out because I'm looking back to things and how it was before, I'm relieved because finally I was able to tell you all those things that I have been keeping in for quite sometime now, I feel down because I'm thinking about what could have been, I feel dumb because I thought we could have been, I'm sad because it never turned out how I pictured it, thankful because you actually had the guts to talk to me about this.

Teary eyed. I appreciate the fact that you said sorry, thank you. I was hoping maybe someday I'd hear you say that... or not even just a sorry, but just something. I have so many questions, so many things I want to say, and so many things I want you to tell me.

I'm blanking out, but I keep thinking.
Sigh... I don't know if this is a sigh of relief or because I'm bummed out =/.

For you,

...I'll save this one when we talk. But.. as of now I want you to know that I still think you're a genuinely good person. I've missed you.